I’ve been listening to the Beautiful Eulogy lately while spending a quiet time reflecting about my whole life in 2014.
Honestly, the year didn’t end well for me because I received a bad news from my family about my dad being in a coma. They were all supposed to enjoy their vacation in Thailand. And now it just got messy.
Four days prior the year ended, the day started beautifully as it was the first day of snow in town. I remember I had my morning walk with thanks giving to the Creator. I thanked Him for the snow and many things. I loved feeling the snowflakes on my face. I enjoyed hearing the sound of snow being crushed under my feet while walking and smelling the fresh air. God was so awesome.
Then I returned home and felt so sick in my stomach. The news hit me hard and it broke my heart. I felt very angry and stuck. I cried heaps and my eyes were sore. Adding to that, I felt as if my spirit was being crushed like a bug. But then I realised that there was only a thin line between life and death, praise and curse. So I chose to lift myself up with music and prayers, proclimaing His words.
Today is the first day of 2015. I thank God that He is always good and faithful to me. Many times things happen in life and I don’t really get them. Many things just leave me stunned and I feel like punching the wall. But thank God I can choose. I choose life and praising Him no matter what.
In the midst of this mess, I must remind myself that God is always good…and awesome.